our start.. was beautiful.. one of the beautiful-est fairy tale i can ever have probably.
you brought me to watch the sunrise. it was so quiet. just the 2 of us. the serenity of the surroundings. hearing you breathe. hearing you talk. hearing you confide in me. i felt it was the most romantic thing a couple can ever do together. i had a good impression of you. before you had to leave to book in for the first time ever, you asked if i could kiss your lips. i shaked my head cause i was shy.. yet i was happy you asked..
waited for you to be able to book out patiently, then you told me you were admitted to the hospital, i was worried sick, angry with you for not taking care of yourself and being more careful. i was so afraid it’s something serious, although you kept assuring me that you just needed a few stiches. rushed to the hospital, you hugged me. you asked if i could be your girlfriend. i smiled. before i left for the night, you kissed my lips.
the following months was awesome, spending time with you. although i always had to wait for you to book out, although i can’t talk to you as and when i want, although im always worried about you, still, i missed you so much. each time you booked out, you will run.. run to hug me.. & tell me that you love me so much..
you told me you won’t ever sign on. but you did. our quarrels began. since like the 6th or was it the 7th month of our relationship, it went downhill. you put down on me, left me crying when i need to solve things, there and then. you never bothered to comfort me, assure me. as the months went by, and the more you know how much i need you & love you, the more you took me for granted, the more you hurt me, the more you ignore me, the more you treat me…. like shit..
all along, i thought i couldn’t let go cause i love you alot and i can’t live without you. but i was wrong. i was just used to you. i sat down, thought about us, what’s the point of having us? i can’t love a guy who can hurt me so badly, who can break me into pieces, who can abandon me, who can spit at me, who can hit me, who can look into my eyes and ask me to fuck off.
you chose to leave. so don’t turn back & look at me now, cause im happier without you. there is no us anymore. no future. i know, i promised you i won’t ever let you go, but i have to now.. it’s better this way. i still hate you, cause part of me still misses you. but i know, one day i will be able to view you as just another individual. cause then, i will have no hatred, no love for you. you will just be another person to me. another stranger. just a. jeremy. hoe.
still, i wish you be happy.. goodbye forever..